im stressed, restless and confused
the conversation with khidhir left mi wondering
am i the reason for the heartbreaks that ive caused myself to go thru?
he said, mayb now isnt the tyme yet
u should go and find yourself first
get to know you, and learn to love yourself first
b4 loving sum1 else
i was left to ponder on those lines
i felt that what he said was actualli thru
i didnt even know exactly wat kinda guy i want
i know ive been quite a bitch lately
going ard, hurting guys feelings
went into their lives and get out of it leaving scars in their hearts
im sick of it. i felt realli sorie
but i dunno how to apologize
yes, u're rite!!! im a coward!!! YANA IS A COWARD!!!
i dun haf the guts to admit my mistakes infront of him
and tell him straight to the face that IM JUST SO SORRY!!
and that i actualli felt the same wae towards hym
im just scared that history might repeat itself
the cut that is left 2 years ago has healed
but my heart is still fragile
and the wound might tear anityme
the day u let me walk out of your life has taught me a thousand lessons
i know that the years you were wif mi wasnt a smooth sailing one
i hurt u almost everydae
and i reali appreciate it that u stayed in my lyfe and continued loving mi
im sorry for giving u empty promises
despite all that, deep in mi, i love u wif all my heart
tankz for sharing ur lyfe wif mi
there'll owaes b a piece of my heart wf eu

oh gosh!! i feel lyke a slut
stop it yana!! stop it!!
itz tyme for eu to get serious
no more hurting ppl
plz yana plz....
juz wake up and itz tyme to give sum1 ur heart with sincerety

im waiting for that sum1 for mi to love again
promise made to myself: i'll change my ways
i nid to find myself sumwhere within mie
here i come